The Onion

I have been forced to peel back the layers and examine my motives, examine what drives me-- to the brink of insanity. It's funny, the layers unfold, clinical analysis leads to irrefutable truth. I have a co-dependent personality.

#1 fed right into my disorder. Her issues mirrored mine so well I could not help but become addicted. Now comes the hard part, striving for something different. I've had dysfunctional relationships all my life. I don't know what healthy is like. I am not sure that I will respond to healthy.

Then there is still the past. When I peel back the layers of the recent past what will be at the core? I want there to be something. I want it all to make sense. You'd like it all to mean more then just a lesson in failure.