The Game

The sun shines through the windshield heating the vinyl and plastic of my trucks interior, surrounding us in a cocoon of warmth. Outside the sky is clear, the air holding only a slight chill which the afternoon sun is keeping at bay.

We banter back and forth good natured. I'm never at a loss for words when I am with her, even now, when my mood has kept me silent and hiding from my friends. I know everything and nothing about her. She tells me what she wants me to believe. She has her reasons. I know differently but I am somehow sure the truth is between the two. I thought about confronting her, I've given her opportunities to come clean but in the end I decided it doesn't matter.

Recently I spent three days at home recuperating from a minor out patient surgery. Four people checked on me regularly and she was one, that holds more weight then anything else. My friends ask me what I get out of my friendship with her. They say it is all one sided. I can't explain it but to say she is like no one else I know with shades of everyone I've known mixed in. When I'm with her she lifts my spirits, when I hold her I don't want to let go. When she is gone I can't wait to hear from her again.

Is she wrong for me? Yes, without a doubt. She makes me long for the right one to come along and makes me realize I am far from ready for anyone. I am a loner. I always have been. If I pulled someone into my life I am afraid they would wither and fade away smothered from life. I'm better off the way things are.

Exposed Wiring

Croaker quoted one of my favorite bands in his last post and inspired me to interrupt. I love this blog! Hi, otilius, here...The Croaker exposes his "wiring" to us, his innermost workings, so I dedicate the above photo to him, one of my favorite bloggers of All Time.

[unsolicited Guest Post]

I Am The Heir

I am the son
And the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and the heir
Of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am Human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does

There's a club, if you like to go
You could meet somebody who really loves you
So you go, and you stand on your own
And you leave on your own
And you go home
And you cry
And you want to die

When you say it's gonna happen "now",
Well, when exactly do you mean?
See I've already waited too long
And all my hope is gone.. , The Smith, How Soon Is Now?

Sometimes I don't even need to add any words of my own.